in a week i will have completed eighteen years of teaching. the first class i taught was on 'sir gawain and the green knight' back in 1995. i remember feeling at ease and loving what i did. i still feel relaxed in front of the students and i still love it. i guess many things have evolved in the meantime; some may have devolved, too. but here i am, ready to go on, hopefully with more excitement and with new insights. at times i had a lot of zeal, or love; sometimes i was filled with anger; sometimes utterly exhausted. but i've never ever been indifferent.